Liam Payne’s Sister Ruth Pays Tribute to Him 6 Months After His Death – ryan

Ruth Gibbins is paying tribute to her brother Liam Payne.

On Wednesday, April 16, the late One Direction singer’s sister shared a heartbreaking letter about how “impossible” it is to live without him six months after he died at the age of 31 following a fatal fall from his balcony in Argentina.

“My head is still screaming for you,” Gibbins, 34, began the Instagram post. “Each morning on waking, I feel like I am plunged underwater, gasping for air that never comes to relieve me. Living without you is impossible, so for now, I exist. I’m learning to laugh or smile in the right places, but mate, it’s exhausting when all I want to do is speak to you.”

She continued, “In the few moments I allow myself to feel love and not just loss. I can really smile at the memories of us, like last year when we were doubled over laughing at us trying to make something we’d seen on youtube, but memories are always tinged with sadness at how unfair it is we can’t make new ones.”

Gibbins then began to share moments where she was able to “feel love and not just loss.”

“I can sometimes hear you laughing at me walking around like Whoopi Goldberg in Ghostlooking for you everywhere I go,” she wrote. “I see you, though, you’re always coming through in different ways to put me back on the right path. I can’t process what’s happened and the finality of it, you know I will never stop doing all I can for you. I miss you loudly, quietly and in all the moments in between.”

Gibbins concluded: “Love you so much more than these words or my tears are capable of expressing but I know you know this. For now, I’ll meet you in my dreams.”

Payne died in October 2024 after falling from the CasaSur Palermo Hotel’s balcony in Buenos Aires, Argentina.

A preliminary autopsy revealed that he died of multiple injuries and “internal and external” hemorrhages.

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According to his toxicology report, which was released in November, Payne had “alcohol, cocaine and prescription antidepressants” in his body.

Earlier this year, Payne’s cause of death was confirmed by an inquest in the UK as “polytrauma,” according to a hearing in December at Buckinghamshire Coroner’s Court, per the BBC.

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