I am writing right here to in some way throw out what has gathered. Maybe a person has already been in a comparable state of affairs and could inform me. What to do subsequent? 

My husband and I were given married simply these days, four years in the past. Now I am 32. I were given married faster from hopelessness. Then the age became coming near thirty. I desired circle of relatives happiness, love and kids. Only youngsters became out. Twins had been born. There isn't any own family happiness, love as such, too ...
I do now not understand what precipitated her husband to marry. Maybe mother made? Or perhaps he simply desires a housekeeper. If I knew how the whole lot will flip out ultimately, then I really might no longer have were given married and could no longer have youngsters. As a end result, I even have now not , however 3 kids. I clear up all troubles by myself. I deliver order now not best for the kids, however additionally for my husband, who throws matters anywhere.
In phrases of consolation, the whole lot is horrific ... Very uninteresting, with out zest and by some means under no circumstances hardcore. Rarely in order that even indecent to inform. We stay collectively simply due to the youngsters.
At paintings, met a person who's 3 years more youthful. Very exciting. He may be very humorous and adorable. I found out that I fell in love. Loved with out reminiscence. Only now I found out that I had in no way cherished everybody like that earlier than. Yes, and did now not like. It is such an amazing feeling.
The item of my love isn't married. I see that he too has emotions for me. Often makes compliments, attempts to be with me. I see that he pulls in on me. And I am ashamed to confess, however I, too, are attracted to it. Very very. He is aware of I'm married. We have no longer but mentioned relationships. But I assume that the whole lot will flip out.
Already in my head I went via one million extraordinary editions of the improvement of occasions, and there isn't a unmarried properly one. No preference with out outcomes. And although I do now not select a brand new guy, that is additionally a unusual desire. On the only hand, I do now not need to deprive the youngsters of the daddy (something it's miles). But I can not do that anymore.
Separate fad are spouse and children who will begin throwing dust at me. Colleagues simply do now not recognize this. And no person has repealed the golden rule: "Do no longer reptile wherein you devour." Although can any guidelines paintings after I realise that that is the identical character. I will simply element with my husband. I desire he too will ever fall in love as I actually have.